The annoying thing about Parkinson's Disease (as if there were only one annoying thing)is that it slows you down. Getting dressed, tying a shoe, eating a steak, walking to the mailbox, typing this post - all take me an interminable length of time. But I want to go fast! Everything else around me (you included) is going at a breakneck speed. It frustrates that I am left in your dust sometimes. Not to blame you--you're only doing what I want to.
But, coordination is off and fine motor skills dulled and repetitive tasks devolve the longer one tries to keep them going. PD is a motion disease after all--I guess slowing motion is the least of what could be now, and eventually may well be later on.
What good can be drawn from this PD millstone around my neck, slowing me down? Looking on the real thin positive side, it could work out that as I slow down physically and mentally, and hopefully adapt to it, and live into my lightning-less-ness mode,I will model ways for you to consciously slow down and see and hear the things you don't at warp 3. I would like to show you the "back roads" you could take instead of always zipping along on the interstate. To be slow with your family. To put on the brakes at work and see it as a vocation that you can enjoy. To let God slowly fill you and your spirit over time--like a fine wine.
You won't win any races like this, but it's something. Now if you'll excuse me--I'm going to watch the snow melt for awhile!
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